i never hang out with friends on breaks.
i hate it.
my friends all hang out with their other friends,
but its never me.
im the one who always gets left behind.
thats the way it's always been & how it will continue to be.
i make the attempt, i say hey lets hang or go malling.
it never works out.
lately it seems like nothing is working out
for me. nothing is going right.
lately i've just been giving up. not even trying.
i don't even want tot go to school anymore.
I get ignored, and lunch sucks b/c people are douche bags.
i need someone to come & pick me up.
tell me to keep going. tell me everything is
all right. someone who will talk to me
about random shit, talk about nothing for
hours, thats all i need right now. blah.
i need "inspiration" i guess you can call it.
i haven't written anything in a while.
i have nothing to write about.
im falling behind in school too.
i just stare off into space & think.
i hate math, im not looking forward to it
when we go back. i failed our last test.
ik i always say this but i want to change.
not change but evolve i guess.
become tara, i don't want to hide behind
anyone anymore. im tired of hiding.
its just that im so darn insecure
about everything, everything i do, everything
i say. it sucks. i need confidence.
i love track.
i love the people in track.
no offense guys but their wayy cooler
than my "school friends."
their real. all my friends at school seem fake.
except tay i love her :]
i think im going to go outside and attempt
to write something. i need to chill out.